Getting to Know You

O Lord, You have searched me and known me.
You know my sitting down and my rising up;
You understand my thought afar off.
You comprehend my path and my lying down,
and are acquainted with all my ways.
For there is not a word on my tongue,
But behold, O Lord, You know it altogether.
Psalm 139:1-4

Lord, Your knowledge of me goes much deeper than the color of my hair and eyes. Your awareness does not end with what i allow others to see or the things i say in prayer. You know what lies much deeper within: my heart, my thoughts, my past, present and future. Your knowledge is altogether perfect.
I cannot disappoint You. To be able to do that You would have to have expectations of me and to have expectations would suggest ignorance on Your part. This just cannot be possible.
So why do i run and why do i try to hide? Could it be my own foolish expectations of what a Heavenly Father must be? If i knew You as the psalmist did my knowledge of You would be more than just a head knowledge but heart knowledge. This is how i desire to know You, deeply, intimately and without reservation.
Teach me, Father, what it means to pursue You as You pursue me.