God's Light Show

I should be in bed right now but i find myself lingering in the classroom, watching lightning light up the sky and listening to thunder rumble. This is what i call, "God's Light Show". It can be both frightening and beautiful at the same time. I guess that is part of my fascination with thunderstorms.
It reminds me of how powerful and awesome God is. He is also beautiful and majestic. Because of who He is and our very limited knowledge of Him we are sometimes frigthened by Him. But as we come to know Him through His Word and through prayer, as we earnestly seek to draw closer to God we gain a love and respect for Him that drives away ALL our fears.
I really should be going to bed right now but before i do will listen to the rain falling against the windows and on the roof. Then i will say a prayer of thanksgiving to the God who not only teaches me through His creation but who is also with me through the storms.

Getting to Know You

O Lord, You have searched me and known me.
You know my sitting down and my rising up;
You understand my thought afar off.
You comprehend my path and my lying down,
and are acquainted with all my ways.
For there is not a word on my tongue,
But behold, O Lord, You know it altogether.
Psalm 139:1-4

Lord, Your knowledge of me goes much deeper than the color of my hair and eyes. Your awareness does not end with what i allow others to see or the things i say in prayer. You know what lies much deeper within: my heart, my thoughts, my past, present and future. Your knowledge is altogether perfect.
I cannot disappoint You. To be able to do that You would have to have expectations of me and to have expectations would suggest ignorance on Your part. This just cannot be possible.
So why do i run and why do i try to hide? Could it be my own foolish expectations of what a Heavenly Father must be? If i knew You as the psalmist did my knowledge of You would be more than just a head knowledge but heart knowledge. This is how i desire to know You, deeply, intimately and without reservation.
Teach me, Father, what it means to pursue You as You pursue me.